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Name: bura
Birthday: 5/14/1992
Gender: Female
Interests: community service,music,and life
Expertise: select choir, community service
Occupation: High school
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| i had known this guy for a few years and i had just come back from vaca and we were at this party and we just started talking and soon it was everyday all the time and it was just like i needed to let go of him becasue he was headed to college and we got into this huge fight like two days before he left just cause he wanted to see me but i didnt want to go do something with him, so he left and i havent seen him since last year. he was the msot amazing person i had ever met and i dont know, he cared and paid attention and he would act like i was the only girl in the room....it hurt alot it still does becasue i never really did anything about him...you just learn from your mistakes.
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| There is a popular song that is by One republic and Timberland. It says For all of the plans we made
There isn't a flag I'd wave
Don't care where we've been
I'd sink us to swim
We're marchin' on
We're marchin' on I don’t look for songs to have particular meanings but when this song came on today, I realized that its really what I just got to keep doing no matter how down my life may get. This week It started off so optimistic, I had a date planned with a cute guy, I was getting my financial aid packet from my number one school and I was taking a sociology test that I felt sure I was going to get an A on. well as we all know nothing always goes right, this week might have been a week of going wrongs but at the same time I am thankful I have a warm house, parents who love me and unconditional support from my best friends. Well the date that was planned with the cute guy was supposed to happen but didn’t happen because I was really really tired for some reason…I ended up going to sleep at 6 pm and waking up at 6 am the next morning. Now that’s a problem. well we had rescheduled to Friday but I asked him and he never responded to any of my texts or anything so I just gave it up and figured well you were stood up you stupid nimrod. My financial aid packet, it just seemed that this would be the place where I would be going to the point where I sent them confidential information. I was so happy and exited to finally be able to send that card back that says I will be attending their school. there was noting I could say I hated about that school it was pretty and it was perfect. I got my financial aid packet and I will not be going there next year, first due to the lack of money I received and also the fact that one of the schools that I got in from my state they have given me 28,000 and the school costs 32,000 and that’s 4,000 I can make up. This year I have started this positive thinking, where there is a reason and there is a plan. There going to be times where I want something and I wont get it and I cant just sit there and say why I just need to realize that there is a plan that is made specifically for me and its not where iw ant to go its where I am supposed to go. Thirdly my testing…I got a b on my test which while you are reading this might think its ridiculous that I’m mad about that…but I’ve worked so hard all the time and a b does not satisfy me. I guess I have to keep marching on and never give up because in the end its going to be okay. I am telling myself to keep marching on because I know that’s what I need to do and everything will workout I just have to believe in myself. | | |
| senior year is halfway over! only four more months and i will be a college freshman. wow the changes that have occured and things that i thought would never happen. i have lost alot of weight, but thtat doesnt take away from how hungry i always am. like today i ate a monster burger at red robin which was so delicous but so so so so bad. 1402 calories. umm...thats bad. senior year is going pretty well, since i've been taking medicaiton my semster grades were amazing i did really well and my gpa skyrocketed something i never thought it would do. i am working my hardest my next goal is for a 3.77 as this semster so that it averages out to a 3.5 and so then it goes up! i've been ahaving fun trying to do my best! i've gotten accepted into two colleges already i just have to wait for the rest of them. which is eight more. no boys, i want someone special so i will wait. | | |
| senior year is the thing that scared me more than anything. i was scared of everything, growing up, how to finish college applicaitons, how to keep my grades up and how to get over my fears. so far senior year has been really challenging but i'm making it, taking it one day at a time. i got good grades for my first quarter and i figured out i have medical condition and effective medication has not only reduced my stress leval but it's also improved my grades drastically. i've come to realize that the people that matter the most arent the ones that try to make you into someone else or pressure you to do anything its those best friends that can make you smile tell you everything will be okay and always lift you up when your down. i wanted to have a relationship this year but as i think about it now, i dont need one. boys there's no need for them i have a good family i have good friends and for once i'm not looking back on what could have been i'll looking forward and hoping for a better day tomorrow. this was my last thanksgiving in adolecence, next year i'll be in college and i will have learned some new thoughts and new things about life, but i'll leave you here with a list of things i know now that i never knew. happieness is not derived from a guy, it comes from the people who care about you the most and want the best for you.happieness is getting a good grade on my test or my friends giving me a smile in the hallway. drama there is nothing worse, i have no drama in my life and i'm so happy and thankful. it takes your energy and turns you into someone you dont want to be. good deeds they arent to put on your applicaiton and buffer up anything you say but it is for the greater good of people of mankind and better for everyone. | | |
| I used to be able to answer the question, have you experienced death. Someone close to you dying? I would shake my head as a firm yes, but it didn’t really make me understand the concept. When I was six years old, my grandfather died, I think I didn’t really understand or was able to define the subject of death. Since this is really in my heart I’ll share. My first real death was my aunt Dorice, it was December 14 2006. That day was so good but so saddening, my mothers 50th birthday was on that day, that day school was canceled because we had such a huge windstorm that all of Tacoma was out of power, it was cold and it was dreary sitting in the chilly house by myself waiting for my parents to return from work. When my mom walked in at 330 that afternoon, I was at first shocked, then surprised maybe she had come home early because we were going to dinner. Then when she called me into her room and told me she needed to talk to me, my stomach dropped, my hands were sweating and I was scared. Then she started talking she said, “auntie Dorice died, early this morning”. I couldn’t possibly register the words in my brain, and when it finally hit, I just cried and cried and cried. Today, I am sad to announce again, that I have experienced death once more. Ms. Natalie died. I have known her since she could hold Isaiah in a swaddle. She always had this smile on her face, and this electric laugh that could get you started, and she made you feel right at home. I remember in sisters of vision she would pull out Mexican candy and start eating it, like there was no tomorrow. I remember her as someone who I love, who I appreciate for everything thing she has done. I didn’t want to remember her in the bad, I wanted to remember her has the bright light, the twinkling smile. I know she’s in a better place, I know for sure she’s no longer in pain. I hope she knows that every single one of us will be there to help Isaiah, comfort Isaiah, and pick up the pieces for him. I think the one memory that resides in my brain, is when she sat next to me at graduation. She was beaming from ear to ear. I was hoping maybe she would be at mine.So instead of coming to mine, this year is for you Ms. Natalie, i'll work my hardest, do my best and cherish every single memory i have of you, becasue i know thats exactly what you've always wanted from any of us..From all of this I’ve learned never to take anything for granted, because tomorrow is never promised to you. There is death in life, but you have to learn to take tragedy and turn it into triumph. | | |
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